Feelings

Last night, after Callista's Internet had died, I was on a thread on /b/ that was a confession thread, where people naturally go and confess things they did. There are some really funny ones, kids pooping outside of the toilet, and general mischief but most of it is about lost loves and regrets, but a lot more about love. While I was reading it I couldn't help but think about us, and I had this weird feeling. I can't describe it accurately, but it was as if my "emotional self" filled my physical self, like my actual body.

I sort of had an epiphany of sorts and it was that I really really love Callista. I do, I  love you. I kept reading how every girl in that thread was cheating, stealing, and generally being a bitch and a whore, but I've never really felt about that way about you. I've given you all the power to hurt me, and sometimes it's hard (just because of the way I am not because of anything you did), but I trust you completely. I felt like I belonged for the first time. Almost as if you were the last puzzle piece in my life. I hope that last statement didn't scare you off, but it's true.
I've only ever wanted someone to love and to love me return, and that's all I expect out of you. I'm sorry I'm a master troll, and I'm somewhat charismatic, but I've never trolled you, and you know this too, especially after last night.(FINALLY A PERIOD. All those comma's were annoying me)

I think I've gotten side-tracked though. Sometimes I'm scared you'll leave me Callista, that I won't be worth-while anymore, and last night I thought about the possibility of you cheating on me. I thought about it while I was falling asleep and given our situation (Neckbeards with no friends) you don't really have a wide variety of people to cheat on me with, not that you would, but I'm a little paranoid sometimes. But then you log onto MSN, or text me on your phone and tell me that you love me, and it's all right. That sounded a little too womanly or disney princess-y for my normal standards, but it's true. As always;

I love you Callista